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There's lots of things I wish I could say to you. Could have said to you.

I never thought we would become strangers. But that's what I get for letting myself open up to someone..

That's what I get for being there for you through all your shit. Putting up with the way you treated me. 

That's what I get for falling in love. 

I thought I was unbreakable but here I am - broken. 

I don't understand. How someone can say "I love you" a thousand times.

and never mean it.

Remember the night we drove two hours just to get a better view of the stars, we sat on top of your car, and you told me that you would never break my heart or lie to me?

HA! It was a lie about a lie. 

The entire relationship I was trying to be what you wanted, and you took advantage of me, pressured me, destroyed any friendships I had previously had. 

And I didn't mind... because i thought you were enough for me. 

MY BIGGEST MISTAKE

I never would have pictured myself as the girl who's world was her boyfriend.

It just happened somehow and I can't explain how you did it. 

Congrats to you. You had another trophy to show to your friends. 

You didn't have time to be there for me? You have time for who you want to have time for. But that's done now, I'm not "putting a toll" on you anymore. 

You could have ended it different.. Been more honest. 

Who knows, maybe at the time you didn't know you were lying? 

If it was so easy for you to forget about me, why did you cry when we broke up? 

WHY did you keep reassuring me that nothing was going to change? 

WHY did you keep telling me you still loved me?

WHY did you say having a girlfriend would distract you from preparing for your mission?

and then start dating her. 

It sucks. I hate you with a burning passion but I still love you. You can't just STOP loving someone. Even though I would chop your balls off in a heartbeat. 

You've hurt me in every possible way I could be hurt. 

I don't give a crap about not having a guy anymore. It's about you being the only person I could talk to, the only person I told some of my deepest secrets.

You pushed your way into my life. 

Took over my life. 

Then stopped.

You've destroyed me in ways I can't even describe.

If I could i'd erase all the memories I had of you. 

Oh well, hope you enjoyed getting all your clothes back. Too bad you will never be able to get my scent out of your favorite hoodies.. I sprayed those with my perfume every day for three weeks before I gave them back. oooops. ;)

#subtweet don't forget, Karma's a bitch.